:: Redness on Your Cheeks ::

2006-12-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

2006-12-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

Something that S said reminded me of “eternal sunshine spotless mind”.

Sometimes, I do wish there’s really such a procedure to erase certain memories away. Then at least, we will not be stuck in the perpetual self-delusion/ illusion, always seeing him/ her turning round the corner, raising up a hand, the way a certain head is bent over in the bookstore or supermarket, driving past… …

Details. I dun think we should think of memories as events, or what has happened. What I think, it’s all about small gestures or responses that are unique to individuals – details.

2006-12-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

now, guess who. finally. is. MINE?

he's back! (my real sister stole him to china) and i realised my deep deep love for my aki S-I-S-T-A-S!

2006-12-12T12:57:00.000+08:00

and that's me and my new idol - maria theresia : mother empress of habsburg

2006-12-07T09:21:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of someone i haven't seen for a really long time last night.

2006-12-06T13:02:00.000+08:00

so cute! gosh. i'll buy it simply for the sheer cuteness of the ad. even tho' there's no baby from anyone i know to dress.

so i backed down, stepped into the video store to rent some of them (first time in it. jitters man!). but XYZ it doesn't carry many of the titles that i want! (so does anyone has fight club or kill bill? coz i really wanna watch these!) eventually i rented,

1. mail order wife (which is pretty cool)

2. march of the penguins (which is totally boring. so many questions unanswered. like, if they eat and eat, why dun we ever get to see their shit?)

3. taxi 2 (which i haven't watched)

4. und das ist erst der anfang (which is some german thing. which i gave up n followed the english subtitles instead after 20mins of guesswork.which sets a new record for me! hah.)

musik >> how to be dead/ snow patrol

2006-12-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

the 13 movies that i want and really ought to have watched, but haven't done so, and will get it done by this holidays!

1. fight club
2. taxi (1 and 2!)
3. before sunrise
4. before sunset
5. trainspotting
6. v for vendetta (this i missed the last 20mins..)
7. breakfast at tiffany's
8. love actually
9. 21 grams
10. the devil's advocate
11. KILL BILL
12. pulp fiction
13. dazed and confused

2006-12-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

note to self : no longer "miss" to cashiers and store assistants everywhere. for all their good intentions, u've become a "MDM".

danette @ 22 - child in heart and soul, frumpydodah-bridget jones to eveyone else

time to start scuppering for all anti-aging/age-reversal/age-defying creams lotions gels and pulps.

musik >> Call Me When You Get This/ Corinne Bailey Rae

2006-12-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

omg i laughed till my stomach ached!

and did u see?!? he blushes... unfortunately, i like! hah

musik >> threw it all away/ small sins

2006-11-04T12:04:00.000+08:00

" But everybody thinks
That everybody knows
About everybody else
Now now now nobody knows
Anything about themselves
Cause their all worried about everybody else yea
Oh... "

- Jack Johnson

great. exactly what i think.

but now i'm very worried abt myself man! shit.

2006-10-22T19:58:00.000+08:00

i may have not posted for a really long time but no, i am NOT DEAD YET!

all i can say now is that, some of us have this theory that a minute is really 45secs now.

there're bits in my life that seriously ought to be reconsidered.

ok. check this space in erm, 4 wks time.

2006-09-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

i know. it's been a long time since i'd last posted anything constructive. and i hate to be the bearer of bad news. and not that we haven't discovered it yet. but just a gentle reminder.

here goes...

Architect. Many outsiders think this is a terrific, artistic career, but they don't realize how long it takes before an architect gets to design a building. First, there's a five-year bachelor's degree, or a master's. Then there's a three-year internship. After that, many architects in firms must spend years designing building components, such as the heating, ventilation, and air-conditioning system. Going off on your own may not be a solution. Most people who hire architects are older and reluctant to trust designing their building to a 20- or 30-something.

To learn more
OOH profile: www.bls.gov/oco/ocos038.htm
American Institute of Architecture: www.aia.org
Read: Architect? A Candid Guide to the Profession by Roger Lewis

2006-08-30T03:29:00.000+08:00

"There is much pleasure to be gained from useless knowledge."
- Bertrand Russell

i CONCUR!

2006-07-28T10:52:00.000+08:00

Romantic Cellphone - Jay Chou

dear all, the reason why i've been uncontactable is coz, i lost my handphone in bangkok..

...and he has it!!!!! grrrr

2006-07-09T03:21:00.000+08:00

i cheat by saying all these soul-food (and more) is for my heartbreak.

but yes, in a sense it's true. mein herz hat gebrochen. and my worse nightmare has come true - germany and por-tuu-gal against each other, albeit in the wrong match #.

it's like, whether to side with the husband or the love affair - how does one choose? i'm torn.

thankfully spain has been out since eons ago. else my nights wud've even rougher.

speaking of loves, unwittingly thought of the loves (or rather, ex-loves) of my play on my way to work today. sidenote: yes. to WORK. on a SATURDAY. but dun cry for me, it isn't that bad. i got in at 3pm. knocked off at 9pm. i stole food from some other team. spent 40% of the time chitchat-ting with yan-ting. shopping. gotta repeat again tmr. SUNDAY. only without food and yanting. now, THAT will be tragic.

and there're two loves which are expecially tragic.

from the first, i've learnt to not say the things that i dun mean.

from the second, i've learnt to actually say that things that i mean.

someone told me that one day, someone'll teach me to not say the words that i mean.

well, i dun think we need anyone to teach us that. everyone does that all the time. which is why #2 is precious.

2006-06-20T03:50:00.000+08:00

becoz i'm once again bored...

(just came back from the office. in the state of dying-to-sleep-but-s'how-freaking-awake. u noe that kind of sickening feeling?)

well to all those who dun believe how much i weigh... well i guess u're right... ha ha ha

You Should Weigh 200

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

Your Candy Heart Says "Cutie Pie"

You always seem to have a hot date, even though you never try to meet anyone.A total charmer, you have a natural appeal that keeps you in high demand.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: multiple dates with multiple people
Your flirting style: 100% natural
What turns you off: serious relationship talks
Why you're hot: you're totally addicting

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Your Birthdate: August 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.
Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower
Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom
Your power color: Tangerine
Your power symbol: Ace
Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birth Month is August

Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful.You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits!
Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotion
Your gemstone: Peridot
Your flower: Poppy
Your colors: Orange, red, and light green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

ok time to slp.

2006-06-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

"wah piang. u also even more handsome than all of them*. u join sure win."

well and i totally can't stand the winner* . he talks like a chao-ah-beng and i can't stand pple who talk like a chao-ah-beng!

it's true. perhaps i've become less sensitive to it now coz i sit in the midst of ah-beng-talk 5 days a wk. but talk is talk only. i cringe the most when i hear that accent strikes behind/in front me. argh. dunno how many times a day i'd to cringe. u guys/ girls dunno the pain i'd suffer at my prime location...

to all the ah bengs out there, do heed my truly wise words: candies aren't made for talking.

2006-06-04T15:14:00.000+08:00

i've come to realise, that i am the girl who's always late.

and there's a double meaning in that. well... tsk.

in other news, yay i've researched the dvd dept in GIANT @ marina sq. they're selling the lawyers* and stained glass*, both of which star the handsome KIM SUNG SU!

once again, he plays the loser who doesn't get the girl. how come ah??

well he stars in RED shoes and monopoly* as well. wow. just like the patent red aldo shoes vogel and i love~ unfortunately, red shoes is a horror show. and we all know i DUN watch horror shows. hmm.. shall i just make an exception? sigh sigh sigh. decisions decisions. and now the next question is, shall i buy any of them? all of them?? hmmm...

(STAINED GLASS also stars the guy-who's-the-rich & pretty-sister's-scheming-husband-to-be in GLASS SHOES. the one i like in that show - lee dong geon. haha. so yay! both male leads i like! and apparently, it's coming on channel u SOON. so yay! lots of eye candies coming up soon!)

2006-06-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

CANBERRA,

HERE WE COME!

2006-06-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

i like going to work nowadays.

i can revise german at my workplace. how wonderful!

says:
Wartemittagessen
says:
!??!!
says:
is this correct?
says:
it seems WEIRD.
says:
like how come it's one word?!
says:
Wartezeit für das Mittagessen
says:
hmm better.
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
no no
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
no Zeit
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
Gewarten or Gewartet i think
says:
GRR
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
Gewarten! für Mittagessen!
says:
alright.
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
that's all
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
haha
says:
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
ey i like coming to work
says:
yeah that's what i'm doing now
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
u girls help me revise my german
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
hahahaha
says:
hahahahhaa
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
dun need to pay for expensive revision courses this hols alrd
the air is dry. my lips are cracking. the lightings outside the windows deceive. was sind uns passieren? says:
haha

2006-05-29T03:03:00.000+08:00

poof!

what is meaning, if nobody can agree. what is meaning really, but a way to justify ur wants. ur desires.

and there's always a way ar'd meanings themselves.

that's why i dun believe in meanings.

in other news, i truly believe that my brain is in regression...

2006-05-22T02:31:00.000+08:00

we like meeting mavis teo.

mavis is a very knowlegable and compassionate girl who is always there to render help to those in need.

for example, she'll keep joanne updated with the latest news. also, she'll very unselfishly, impart her vast knowledge to me. like how my handsome hunk kim sung su was a PRADA model before. hmm... ok. so much more resourceful than me.

mavis is curious about everything. any new phenomenon. every change in routine. her thirst for knowlege is so great. she'll question and answer her own questions, and then very generously shares her new discoveries with us. a very wonderful spirit indeed.

we like meeting mavis teo!

haha ok.. i think only those present on sat will know what the "luckily becoz i talk to myself" 's really good for...

otherwise, i'm watching full house again. haha... this time r'd i'm taking my time to slowly savour The Show ok.. hmm...

and i'm also looking for JAY CHOU's albums. (a bit out of date i noe... but i'm highly addicted to november's chopin now) so yah.. so can whoever has them kindly lend them to me for a while? thanx thanx!(my sisters refused to lend their copy to me after i scolded them for finishing the kueh lapis.... irritating.)

2006-05-15T02:20:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morn and first thot in my mind of what u said over dinner last night.

cudn't help but grinned in my sleep-messy state.

for ur future happiness, (and my future investment dress), i also hope u lose, mavis teo!

na-ne-na-ne-poo-poo!

2006-05-13T02:49:00.000+08:00

things have not turned out to be alright.

no more lunches together everyday for the next two months.

but strangely, relief. perhaps the fear of facing someone EVERYDAY for THAT LONG will make me think of the person as less interesting. it's always better to keep some distance apart. like we are doing now.

no matter wat, tmr's a very happy day... finally meeting my dear mavis for a shopping spree!

and maybe we can discuss abt korea together... hiakhiakhiak.

(btw, the FULL HOUSE house's really nice too! all budding architects shud take note. very nice open concept. such nice views. and u shud also take note that altho' that spiral staircase is a nice element.. it's they dun really use it leh. except to be always WIPING IT. or throw clothes on it. hahaha. and i love the kitchen too! wonder who'll cook spaghetti for me in that... hopefully the guy below will cook again. haha)

wells as i was telling brenda n yy, there're so many things i'ld like to do.

continue piano where i left it... (which is very, very shamefully, at grade 1.)
continue german!
learn salsa (or some kind of dance)
learn yoga
learn to drive (actually not really. just that i'm sick of e'one asking.)
learn to dive

let's see how many will actually materialize... i'm afraid not many/ any.

2006-05-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

WAHLAU PEOPLE! we've all been tricked by MAVIS TEO!

u girls better thank me. luckily i had too much free time on my hands over the wkend. so checked out the vcds from her. got such good stuff nv tell us a word AT ALL.

wat RAIN and full house and full house and RAIN. i say, why FULL HOUSE's worth watching is really becoz of him!

THAT is what i call, hey good looker!

altho' he looks good mainly in suits and short hair and toot in e'thing else.. but but. so few pple can carry suits off so well! and he looks like some JAP WARRIOR!

okok.. i think if some koreans read that will come n kill me... so i better not talk abt JAP WARRIORS...

anyways. hehe. being the resourceful girl i am.. i've dug up so much dirt abt him! well actually i found his website* BUT it's all in korean. sheesh. but u can still look at the photos*. see the signs of aging. haha. well actually he's q. old alr'd but it's ok. he's still single. and i like older men too. so let's all go to korea! haha

oh yes oh yes.. his name is KIM SUNG SU*.

and all becoz of mr. kim, i was sleepless for 2 nights.. trying to cheong all the vcds finish... (this is embarrassing to confess, but i also cried at disc #21) it's pure insatiable greed i tell u... cannot get enough. of him. hai4 wo3 now so tired.

so yes, so good fortunes must share. do check out the very handsome KIM SUNG SU in FULL HOUSE (as YOO MIN HYUK). the story's pretty fun too! (and funny. and sad.) =)

2006-05-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

"lifts for the disabled in mrt stations were considered..."

"... inefficiencies"

"... unemployment insurance"

"... healthcare costs"

"... etc etc etc"

the same things that jump out from the readings. sounds like someone in a certain party took a certain module in social work and copied everything from the same page too. hmmmm...

anyways. i'd nearly forgotten about Dead Poets' Society and how it was such a defining film in our teenage life! (my love ethan hawke!) altho' it's a bit sad at the end... i want to watch it again! (okok after exams. i want to watch/ re-watch so many things after exams..)

another "high definition" movie being... The Teenage Textbook. hahaha. (ok dun laugh ok. i spent an entire afternoon trying to remember what's the stupid movie's stupid name.. hahaha.) that was when we were in.. sec 3? sec 2? that movie i remember particularly coz it was the first "midnight movie" we sneaked off from the chalet to watch. in some cinema in the east. haha. altho' i must say that i've really forgotten what it was mostly about. except the "Paya Lebar Junior College". which has its letters at the gate dropping off one-by-one. hahaha.

but maybe it made more impact on our slightly older friends. someone once said that if there's one movie he'll never forget, it'll be that Teenage Textbook. coz it came out during his sec4 yr and gave him and his bunch of friends such great hopes for their JC lives. hahaha

for those, like me, who has forgotten what it is all abt, here is a little reminder~ http://www.inkpot.com/film/teenagetextbook.html

otherwise, i'm discovering the joys of chinese songs! (well actually, to be exact, jay chou and mayday songs! my studio girls will be so proud of me! *beams*)

2006-04-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

i'm actually typing this post a second time becoz 5 mins ago the lightning KA-BA-BOOM and suddenly, my hse hse BLACKOUT. for a second, i actually thot i was going blind.. sheesh.

it reminds me of this stupid joke that my tuition kid asked a month ago,

why are there so many lightnings nowadays?

(answer to be revealed, at the end of the post)

anyways, good for you, beocz i'm just gonna make this SECOND typing short.

i'd just wanted to flaunt: life's been too good.

i dun want this exam period to end. i dun want the frantic everyone intern-searching, job finding, and stressing-u-out to come. my days are now long, lazy, and most importantly, list-less.

list-less. yes. actually, i ought to make a list/ mugging timetable for the paper next weds... but... noooOOOooo.. accumulated wisdom has told me i am just gonna oh-so-panic next wk.

but here i am, re-reading my book of the wk, finishing my 4th tub of ice cream of the week, sipping of the stolen beer (i hope daddy doesn't count them! haha), wishing that the rain (FREAK) will hurry up end so that i can meet wenshan cheng and mavis for dinner =)

and to jumpstart your pathway to the good life, here are some signs that shows, well. life's been too good!

- the tummy's growing so big, a fitting specialist will prob think u're a few months preggie.
- the jeans can't really fit anymore.
- u start doing the "ms universe" wave, chicken wings in place.
- the first thing u think of when u wake up in the morn is, "so... what day of the wk is this?".
- going to the nearest mart to buy ice cream actually seems too long a trip that u start bribing ur siblings to run down for u. and they do. haha.
- the biggest decision in ur life is: shall i cut my hair.. or not??

the most exciting things that's in the near future are well, all on next fri... so it's still a long wait.

speaking of which, once i thot, all was lost. but apparently not so. i'ld like to think that things are falling into place then i tell myself i can't, coz then it wun come true (like how someone said, "u go buy 4D. but dun think that it'll come out. then it WILL come out!". haha). so well, dun stop ur praying, buddha-leg-huggings for me!

but nevertheless, lunches together everyday for 2 months do sound good. (altho' i still think highly impossible. haha)

*pats her big belly*

(and actually, i've a morbid fascination with it. keep patting it, listening to the sound. keep turning ar'd to this full length mirror and see how big and beautiful it looks like as i slouch even further into my armchair...definitely preggie behaviour. but NO. i'm not.)

and the answer:

becoz PAP is coming to town.

... ...

hahaha i thot it was q. funny. kids these days ah... haha

2006-04-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

i thought that this statement is really stupid, until i looked at it again.

"the large majority of youth are in the mainstream of society".

tricky tricky. better make sure u dun write like this during exams. tsk tsk.

anyways, I HAVE A CHOICE! yay!

and so for the first time in his 55(?) yrs of age, my daddy (and mom. and me!) can vote. yes. so exciting.

it was so funny. how the PAP truck tore down the streets to put up all the banners and posters less than an hr since the closing of the nominations. (i happened to need step out of hse then. caught the funny frantic sight. haha.) and small things like how, even the truck driver was wearing an all-white ensemble.

not to be outdone, by the time i stepped back on AMK soil, "YOU HAVE A CHOICE" has its bright red banners everywhere... the lightning and the hammer, the white and the red. whiteout/bloodshed soon?

i said choices can be bad too not too long ago, didn't i?

befitting the mood of the day, think about the "alternative view" offered by the alternative CHOICE.

what is alternative? it is something that is not mainstream, right?

but if enough people, a majority, support it/ think that way...

so doesn't the alternative simply becomes the mainstream, the prevailing mood?

2006-04-27T04:12:00.000+08:00

everything's changing. everything's scary.

have u changed? are u scared?

i think everyone's pretty scared these days. some are scared coz everyone seems to be changing. some are scared coz nothing seems to be changing even while everyone's changing.

so how apt it is to come across this (in my exam readings... hahaha) . just thought that i shud share this list. and maybe we can all make our own lists, and in time to come, take it out again, laugh at how true, how silly u were, or cry at how true, how silly u were.

so get ready your pens and paper, it's a fairly l.o.n.g. list. (i typed it all out! so YOU better do it if you think you NEED TO!)

HR module once again, anyone? *

However, because identity is a lifelong process, significant positive changes can be achieved, even by those with a serious failure identity. An important principle is: Although we cannot change the past, what we want out of the future, along with our motivation to achieve what we want, is more important (than our past experiences) in determining what out future will be.

and blah blah blah...

To determine who you are, answer the following more specific questions:

1. What do you find satisfying/ enjoyable?

2. What are your religious beliefs?

3.What is your moral code?
One possible code is to attempt to fulfill your needs and do what you find enjoyable without depriving others of the ability to fulfill their needs

4. What are your sexual mores?
All of us should develop a consistent code that we are comfortable with and that helps us meet our needs without exploiting others.

5. What kind of career do you desire?
Ideally, you should seek work that is stimulating and satisfying, that you are skilled at, and that earns you enough money to support the lifestyle you desire.

6. What are of the country or the world do you want to live in?

7. Do you hope to marry?
If yes, to what type of person? When? How consistent are your answers here with your other life goals?

8. Do you want to have children?
If yes, how many? When? How consistent are your answers here with your other life goals?

9. What kind of image do you want to project to others?

10. What do you enjoy doing in your leisure time?

11. Do you desire to improve the quality of your life and that of others?
If yes, in what ways? How do you hope to chieve these goals?

12. What type of people do you enjoy being with? Why?

13. What kind of relationship do you want to have with your relatives, friends, neighbours, and people you meet for the first time?

14. What are your thoughts about death and dying?

15. What do you hope to be doing in 5 years time? in 10 years times? in 20 years?
What are your plans for achieving these goals in these time periods?

To have a farily well-developed sense of identity, you need to have answers to most, but not all, of these questions. Very few people are able to arrive at rational, fully consistent answers to all the questions.

Expect some changes in your life goals as time goes on. As you grow as a person, changes will occur in your beliefs, attitudes, and values and in the activities that you find enjoyable.

* actually this isn't HR. it's the social work module. but it's good! very good. everyone should take it!

2006-04-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

you have, once again, outdone YOURSELF LEH!

less than 22hrs to the exams and u have a single chapter studied not.

(gosh why am i talking like it's germ-ish??)

anyways, is it my imagination, or does it seem like more and more germ-ish speaking adverts are on tv now? (gillette, subaru... izzit coz of the... Fussball-Weltmeisterschaft??)

yes, dun forget to join in the fun* !

back to the main topic.

yes. times are good. spirits are anew. the mix of soil and chocolate ice cream stains on the shirt (which one is soil? which one is ice cream? gosh!) testifies to that.

oh oh. i am very sad. becoz i think i'll never get to vote. boohoohoo. my daddy said that, he has never voted in his entire life... the opposition seems to avoid wherever he moved to...

i want to vote!

even tho' i think i'll end up voting for the PAP. haha. but hey! it's a right to vote and it'll be q. sad if we nv get to exercise that. and truth be told, some of the opposition really look q. look this time round. more SOLID sia.

anyways, just a kind reminder!

+ they printed my age as 22

- it's so far from like 14 years old in rgs hor

+ u noe hor
after this yr
we'ld have known each other for over a DECADE!

+ who wud have thot we'll reach this day..

- wah lao waddya mean?!
at least we're still alive
u make it sound like u expect us to be dead by now or something!

+ haha no lah!
as in time really pass by too fast w.o us knowing

+ i was looking at my sister's yrbk today
wahlau. everyone looks so young and fresh

+ and they SHINE
i SWEAR
they were SHINNING in the photos loh

- are u sure they are not shining cos the paper was glossy?

+ whereas nowdays i take photos and only look old and hagged and CRUMPLED

2006-04-03T09:08:00.000+08:00

yo. thanx to every single dearies for all ur concerns. *hugs* no worries man! actually, i was more irritated (exasperated! aggravated!) with some other things-that-shall-not-be-named than the thing-that-we-all-know-what-without-being-named.

basically i wish that life isn't so full of choices. choice is always good? oh wait till u discover the paradox of choices.

so well, i took that whole of thurs fri and sat days off from the thing-that-we-all-know-what-without-being-named to feel sorry for myself. listening to thereupatic songs and what nots. (wallflowers' babybird is very good!) which is very bad. and which means i ought to be in fighting gear now.

but i'm not.

and who was the idiot who said, "if life throws lemons at you, u make lemonade out of them"?

i've an awful feeling it's mrs. newby... ...

Now bring back your velvet heart

And we'll make you brand new feathers

Sleep through the morning light

With your arms around your brother

2006-04-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

i shud've recognised it then.

the prolonged tiredness. the total disinterest in everything. not even food and meal times excite me anymore. and, in his own words, "don't be so pessimistic!"

these are the signs of burning out.

let's just try to hold on until the 3rd of may at least.

2006-03-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

The remedy is the experience
This is the dangerous liason (I says)
The comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Well it all amounts to nothing in the end

Well I heard 2 men talking on the radio
In a cross-fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
Well they were counting down the ways to stab a brother in the
Be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss
With the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophe
Dance with me
Well if you've got the poison, I've got the remedy

2006-03-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

since when did u change?

since when have u become so clingy and needy, apologetic and accomodating?

since when have u start to run to every important man in ur life the moment u know u've f-up?

today's totally horrendous. let's just say general weariness and irritation of everything. being caught and freezing in the rain doesn't help. altho for once (actually no, twice), i actually met some nice cabbies today. but that's the total reversal of my everyday life too.

the next two wks are gonna be worse.

"well it all amounts to nothing in the end"

i hope i get sick. like, really. then at least i can have an excuse for my insatiable desire to burrow in my bed all day long.

cocoon! cocoon! i couldn't even spell cocoon! argh. seriously, what was i thinking of during that 3 hrs man... everything just slipped past me...

maybe i shud really go and draw some lots... ... the danger is in knowing what u want, but in knowing what u dun want.

all i want now is lots of jason mraz, a really really thick think book (well, mindless ones will do too), some belgian chocolate drink, my old blanket. and i'm all set. but then again, that's the danger.

i've got the poison. who has got the remedy?

ok. everything wun make sense i guess hur hur hur unless u know every bit of the tale...

2006-03-24T07:54:00.000+08:00

we are so busy. out of no choice, we have to meet up to go home together, so that we can catch up with each other. impromptu-ly s'more.

"i wish that the next 4 wks will pass soon"

"yay. me too."

2006-03-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

being the natural time-waster that i am, followed the link on my dearest cousin's blog and i drew a house and it said (which half of it is kinda eerily true):

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. son.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

no concept. no structural considerations. no statements. no nothing. but dun be shy, all of u are invited to myhaus - to see the ridiculously kiddy hse the architecture student has built for herself, click here*

but i'm a kid lah. otherwise, i've a street named after myself now!!! hahaha! come move into my neighbourhood! premium brand! prime land!

Your street 'zhuang' is built!To add houses to the street just give the below link to your friends or post it on your favorite forum:
http://www.drawahouse.com/takethetest/index.asp?street=acda5f3835281720bcfe5450d13d0213

2006-03-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

foreword: i hope whoever picked up my OLD phone will get cooties. and rashes everywhere.

of coz.

optimisim prevailed and i was naive enough to think that lightning doesn't strike the same place twice. once upon a time, i lost my phone coz it secretly dropped out of my duffel bag, and i still haven't done a back-up of all the contact numbers periodically, choosing to believe that i'll nv be so careless to lose it again. especially after SO long.

and lost it i did. time makes us complacent. i thought i'd forgot to bring it out that friday. until i reached home at 2am to search. well, it dropped out of my sling bag.

so with that, the last vestige of time has passed. and now i've been FORCED to get a new CAMERA PHONE. bah!

vestige of time? well, to quote our dear xiaopanpan, "wah luckily urs is an OLD phone. no incriminating photos/videos!" (haha of coz no incriminating photos/videos.. i wun take photos as uglee as u all do ok... hahaha) but well, it really marks the passing of an era. the moments it appeared in its short 3-4 yrs life span. and gosh it's been only 3-4 yrs? it seems almost like a lost relic compared with the phones everyone's peddling to me... it's a bit shameful really. all the 15 or 16 yr old young sales boys/girls fawning over the newest techie stuff in the phones and listing out all the hi-functions and which is better and what-nots and i look as lost as a... as a... chinese coolie from the 19th century. altho' i must admit, even the man next to me, with the china-chinese accent, is a h*ll lot more up-to-date than i am!

(oh yes. i'm so ulu until i dint know there's some china-chinese brand trying to break into the mkt? now i can't r'ber the name... if u are free can go to the HELLO@comcentre, under TRENDY left hand topmost corner... my my i must say it does look quite trendy... QUITE only)

i'm the saddest for, of coz, losing everyone's numbers. and i've a feeling i'll nv learn my lessons. all the numbers one has collected over the years, many u dun really use, some u dun even use anymore, but u're just too lazy to delete it away. it's like trying to erase someone off from ur life. but to you, every someone definitely has left an imprint in ur life at some point or another. how does one ever erase that away? (like, the young jap couple who said we must go windsurfing together one day after the courses. we nv did.) whether they've changed their numbers and not told you. or whether they've passed away. yes. it's morbid but i do keep the numbers of those who've passed away (well, it's NOT THAT many). it's like, on some days, when one is really really really bored, u flip thru' all the people u've known and think, "hey who's this??" and then 2 seconds later u remember who he/she is. and u get disconcerted becoz people u know shudn't die so early. young people. don't. die.

ok digressed.

anyways. i'd wanted to get the "there there that flower phone with the mirror". tsktsk unfortunately, my budget doesn't call for that ah. so settled for a better alternative (acc. to the 15/16 yr olds) and passed on that savings to a new number(well it's time to settle all the nonsense calls after all. so yes, if u've an email from me means that i DUN consider u a nonsense. if not... haha), and plenty of blingblings to dress up the bulky bulging bigbrotherbig! (so drop again can see the BLING)

tsktsk u noe.. bling. bulky. bulging big. brother. hey all rhymes~ (haha cheng wenshan: we really are natural poets~)

so well, i guess i'll have to start collecting numbers all over again. (and yet i'm never one good with numbers. haha. pun! tsktsk. poets at work.)

otherwise, it has been a real good and decadent wkend. movies. long lazy lunches and dinners. and an extremely long and lazy but very intellectually stimulating and gastronomically satisfying buffet brunch today. (it's all munich's fault i swear!). it's almost perfect. minus the phone incident and well, work did NAGGED in the back of the head for a while today.. maybe like, 5seconds? well well well.. i suppose i ought to get started soon... guess it's the same predictably unbreakable sunday night syndrome once more.

but. my stomach is growling. the shower is hot. the teevee is on. and my new toy beckons. haha

afterword: wow. this's been a really long entry! haven't "vomitted" out so much for such a long time!

2006-03-10T10:59:00.000+08:00

forgetting is to dis-remember
the sadness of the heart
that vows to forget
when it cannot

the person that one cannot forget
is the person who is afar
people always urge one
to forget the person whom one cannot forget

kikuta kazuo, kimi no nawa

beautiful isn't it?

i like especially the first line, "forgetting is to dis-remember". the remember rings loudly with forget. actually, i'll like it even better if it's "forgetting is to remember". becoz the more one tries to forget, the more one remembers.

funny. how easy it is to forget some things. and then others not.

2006-03-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

i was gonna post some funny stuff on each of the past few days (coz i dunno. funny stuff just happens to me? my life's a joke. really) but i've been too lazy/ forgetful.

right now, i was also abt to post s'thing intellectually funny but but thanx to some lucky email i'd just read... my heart skipped a beat and ur brains need not be taxed!

thank your lucky stars and pray for me!!! *beams* (p/s dun ask why! just pray! lit incense! throw coins! hug buddha's legs! kneel and count the rosary! all ur efforts will be doubly rewarded!)

la la la.. and now i can't get in the mood for work.. sheesh...

2006-03-01T12:57:00.000+08:00

it distresses me to no end, how easy it is to forget things.

and the secret to my monster appetides and flat stomach? (well relatively. everything's in moderation if u put things into perspective and relativity. haha)

be friends with people as funny and ridiculous as mine are. laugh until stomachache ah!

2006-02-25T02:32:00.000+08:00

last wk, i dreamt that i have worms in my excrement. i woke up and checked my shit and found none. i heaved a big sigh of relief.

a few nights ago, i dreamt that i have two 10cm-long strands of hair growing my left big toe. i woke up and looked at my toes and found none. i heaved a big sigh of relief.

i wonder what it all means.

2006-02-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

other than the writing part, it has been pretty fun researching for my social work essay!

As the Minister of State for Community Development and Sports Mr Chan Soo Sen urged, "women in their 30s [should] not to give up hope of getting married, [but] to take the initiative and express their feelings to the men they fancy ".

- The Straits Times, 6 October 2002

Single mothers by choice is a national group founded in New York City in 1981 to provide information and support for single mothers and single women considering motherhood.

The membership is described as, typically, career women in their 30s and 40s, “up against their biological clocks,” facing the fact that they can no longer wait for marriage before starting families. Most say they would have preferred to have brought a child into a good marriage. However, as many point out, while women have a lifetime to marry, nature is not so generous in allotting childbearing years.

These single mothers tend to be very independent, self-reliant women.

and that, my friends, is the fundamental difference between them and us - they've moved on, but we're still talking about a prototype "good family". industrial standard fare - man, woman and kids.

anyways, between the fine lines, his statement only goes to show what the men (here) really are. hahahahhahaa. blockheads.

2006-02-20T20:43:00.000+08:00

the worst home to go back to is one w/o food.

i was extremely poor and famished. but i thot hey my house has lots of food. i came back expecting to eat the house out, and guess wat. i really had to eat the house. i had forgotten that i'm not the only glutton at home. haha

and now, i'm eating LEFTOVER FROZEN PINEAPPLE TARTS and stuff from CNY. sux man. but worse - i'm stealing my sisters' leftover chocolates from Vday to eat. how come nobody gave me chocs for Vday this yr?!?

anyways, remember the first line. words of wisdom.

2006-02-19T16:23:00.000+08:00

i'm jotting this down only becoz some day, when i'm feeling terribly horrid and unloved, it'll remind me of the funniest outing last night and laugh at myself. for actually agreeing to be, An Older Woman.

oedipus complex springs to mind. hahaha.

i made him delete away the number, nevertheless. i deleted his too. if fate will have it, we'll bump into each other again. if not, it's still a very funny thing to remember.. hahaha!

2006-02-17T16:52:00.000+08:00

not to worry. i've snapped out of it. not like the last time. it's pretty easy after one or two days. and after reminding oneself that u only need to go thru' this like maybe, once a yr. and hopefully less.

otherwise, i'm really in a too very cheery mood now due to a perfect gentleman. actually, more like gentleboy. mrs helen tan need not fear - there's still hope for RJ boys after all! but boys being boys, horrible ones must tease the nice perfect boy and then, the nice perfect boy will eventually become horrible too. so hey, maybe there's a reason behind her fear.

and news spread fast i see i see.. haha i dun think i've to explain much abt last hols to anyone. it was after all, a good fling. it wud've been nice if circumstances were different. "right place wrong time". but hey, i'm sincerely happy to prolong my presidential term u noe. haha. nobody can usurp my title!

oh wells. back to today's tiny incident. i still can't get that spastic grin off my face. hehe. it's nice to get into these silly moods again. and to know that, as we approach the scary two-two, we dun look too old to 18 yr olds. makes me remember and hanker after those silly "everyday is a valentine's day" JC days again. hehehe.

and Vday! i'm extremely sorry man.. i've plans for everyone really! unfortunately, a tiny technical glitch appeared..

2006-02-13T11:58:00.000+08:00

it's been so long. u really ought to snap out of it stupid danette.

2006-02-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

i'm a sucker for propaganda songs. so ra ra shang4 kuo3. so click the "listen song" button here*.

It's the little things that we share, the love and joy that's in the air
The children's laughter everywhere, and all our favourite things...

Over the years, I've grown accustomed to your ways
And no matter where I'll be, it warms my heart to know that
You're always here for me...

and it's pink becoz... since, love is in the air.. hah

no matter what, i still think this is one of the nicest place to stay in. for long. (and no i'm no propaganda machine! altho' they shud pay me for this. haha) so i dun understand why some people say, "i dun understand why anyone wanna move here". and that was in particular refering to the angmohs. why not? sure it's not the richest, the most beautiful, most happening, most ra ra place... but hey, no one no place is perfect. u're the one with social mobility. after ur travels, can't u see it still? they did. that's why they moved here. not that i'm saying anyone who chose not to stay here eventually is stupid. but to write off this place totally even b4 consideration is really stupid.

2006-02-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

thinking abt our entities always blow my mind. and waste such a freaking large part of my time. i can't believe i spent a whole day on it with you. when i shud be doing practical stuff, z.B practical sch work or fulfilling my presidential roles in anticipating of the big day. (haha!) if u're raised up as to be such a free thinker and questioning mind as i did (at least on entities), u'll find that u can live very well w/o having to rely on certainty and assurance of this life, afterlife, beforelife and blah.blah.blah. even tho' we'd like to think that we're on our way to something greater, more, more, more. there's more to this, there's more to that. that's us, Man. it's always MORE. better. and betterment means no more shit. haha what an active self-imagination. it's all kitsch anyways. can u accept a he/she/it who has to shit or trim his/her/its nails once every wk? but we're all made in his/her/its images. think abt it. yet he/she/it is still the creator/ programmer in all sense of the word(s). and who can really trust any of them. politics always get in the way. even at funerals*. i guess that's what my dad was trying to teach all along. nothing can be totally reliable. fret for urselves. decide for urselves. which leads me to the big F word. freedom doesn't just mean totally free (u shud've realised by now. nothing in this world we live in is free), being able to choose (and let's not get me started on choices..), but freedom is being able to bear with the consequences of ur decisions. but intimidation shudn't be one of them. i want to eat an apple, so i must've weighed the crunchy pleasure against the possibility that the core can choke me to death. and i can either eat a solid apple or make it into pulp, or juice it! and either ways there's the possibilities of death (morbid. but that's that's the simplest analogies i can think of now). i turn up in a black tie event knowingly, wearing outrageous costumes or nothingness, becoz knowing that i might be kicked out, or shunned, i'm still gonna try to say something thru' that outfit. at least people wud see it. and i can respect u without honouring your beliefs and taboos. just becoz u can't eat beef doesn't mean i can't. which was what got me raked up last night actually. few people truly understand this word. freedom is not just any word. sure they were crude, but powerful. and this is what political cartoons shud be - crude but powerful. and it sure has achieved the aims of it's commission - to depict the fear when dealing with this subject. so i must say they're pretty successful. blahblahblah. oh!and go watch brokeback mountain people! i think it's a success. even howard stern * makes a surprise U-turn in his -ism and -phobia...

and speaking of holy shit... me need go now. haha

2006-02-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

some people just dun get it...

if u dun forgive, how can u ever expect to forget?

and the things people do for the love of the cold, the hard, the fast $$$... i'll never understand us.

otherwise, my JS group (yes. no kind and generous and intellectual and objective simon tho' but i'm still taking a JS module this sem simply for the love of it... haha really!) was comtemplating to tackle the problem of "enjo kosai (teenage girls prostitution) + rori-kon (lolita complex) in older men" for our project but we kinda gave up after a short consultataion with the (obviously jap) tutor and he doesn't look too happy with it. almost like skeletons in the closet that we outsiders shudn't find out.

which made me think of us. how many of us are actually so influenced by what our tutors say/ said.

y'day i recieved such a lovely letter from candice.. which is a very very nice surprise really. but it made me realised, i miss all my friends terribly. =(

2006-02-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

thinking out of the box - the lego suicides. hahaha!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/eitheror/sets/1687654/show/

2006-02-03T11:54:00.000+08:00

i'm disgusting.

i've the worst. the most unhealthy eating palatte in the world.

watever happened to loving me-self?

2006-01-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

TAN SUEHUI!!!! you're ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS!!!!

hahaha actually i choked on my pineapple tart laughing. did u know that? haha

"edison chen is bad boy. shawn yue is bad man."

"well. hongkong can be both big and small. depending on whether you meet shawn yue or not."

then in that case, hongkong must be humongous. sux!

yes and in case u country bumpkins dunno abt the handsome one.. here he is!

2006-01-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

gong xi fa cai ! ! !

seeing all the red ar'd me.. suddenly i wanna tell our samurai tutor that he was wrong. maybe the East is REALLY red.

more than ever, i wish that somebody will hurry up and invent a device that can capture smells.

then, the secret organiser in me can keep these lovely moments nicely categorised and neatly labelled, like souvenirs or pictures from a foreign land - "malacca night mkt 2003". "romantic walk down by singapore river 2005"."the limcheeguan bakwa mixed with some random baby vomit 2006"."CNY explosives!" and so on and so forth.

smells are an integral part of our experiences (aromatic or otherwise), altho' no one has really noticed that. i miss the luscious whiffs of freshly baked CNY goodies that my mom used to make. endless trays, i swear, the smell almost imprisoning. (to me, THAT is the spirit of chinese new yr - the creation and later exchange of too much excess) today, my olfactory bank is running on low. we have the camera, we can keep all these pictures of red. but if u ask me, i can't really remember what CNY was like anymore. altho' i do know that it smells different than before. very different.

so anyways, somebody better invent the wonder soon, before we lose them all.

and then maybe when i blog, i can upload the wafts online and all of u can press a tiny "play" button s'where here on the screen and involunterily salivate while looking and reading abt my wonderful dinner r'd the red steamboat.

esp if u're overseas.. wouldn't such a day be so wonderful? muahahaha..

2006-01-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

the image is supposed to say, "MAKE LOVE NOT WAR" but i could never quite catch the full sentence in a pic. the receptionist was staring. and it wasn't nice to keep others waiting for me.

good things are worth the wait. but sometimes, there's simply no time to wait. or u just allow other things to distract u a bit, and then u regret forever. u get angry with he/she/it, at first. then urself a bit. and maybe even He/She/It. and then u'll just slowly forget abt it. until one fine day, something else comes along to remind u of every wonderful thing u had wanted then.

or maybe, what we'd really wanna do isn't to keep he/she/it for urself, but rather, to capture the moment in a freeze frame so that, one day in future, when we're feeling sad and melancholic, we can take that frame out from deep freeze and think back fondly of that time when it stood still and silent.

as i was telling Somebody on The Long Bus Ride, everything boils down to having The Right Timing.

somehow, i feel neither very excited nor raring to go for this sem. there was a tingle in the spine, a crackle in the air the last sem. where's that tingle now?

2006-01-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

i just went to see the doctor. he's real funny. the really old, but really kind and cheeky kind.

these were, in his own words...

- "oh dear. ur blood pressure is a bit on the too low side... tsk tsk u must be a very boring person. hardly get excited..."

- "becoz u've no boyfriends right? or crushes. that's what u young people call it nowadays right??"

- "go find urself one! get excited! go on dates! get that, RUSH! it's good for ur heart!"

- "u are not a teenager anymore. stop behaving like one! go to bed before 12mn. be a cinderella. i know u all youngsters pretend to be doing work but actually surfing the internet, chatting on irc -no doctor. irc is sooo out-dated. now is msn ok.- ohhh. okok! msn! tell ur frens to chase u offline after 12mn"

- "and drink! get drunk! get ur blood moving!"

- "actually no. dun get drunk. just drink. a bit every night. drunk alr'd later kiss the wrong toad."

then i told him abt OUR theory. the one abt the SISTER who's the ELDEST in the family. (when this gets famous right. yingying, jingyi, ailing and me... we're gonna be ri$h! so u better apply to be our friends now!)

- "hey i'm serious abt the crush part u know. scientific research has proven me right"

i'm glad to know that, i'm everyone's favourite topic these days. from my 10 yr old kid (and probably her entire family) to a 70 yr old doctor i've only just met. a premonition for CNY ba1 kwa4 aunties. abeit a very bad premonition.

but always remember! ur president never slacked ok.. she's still hard at work... the doctor's wrong. it has been a very exciting and rewarding life being everyone else's matchmaker. she has no plans to retire so soon. in fact, at all.

but i simply love this doctor! hehehe

2006-01-16T09:46:00.000+08:00

i realised something y'day - my tuition kid is awfully cute. damn awful but damn cute.

"teacher teacher! y u over 20 alr'd never go n find a boyfriend?"

"teacher teacher! do u want kids in the future?"

"teacher teacher! cannot! u MUST have kids in the future! or else u'll DIE"

AND SO, i had to open her mind a li'l to the many alternative possibilities in this real real world. i hope i dint spoil her textbook fairytale happily ever afters.

i know i used to complain to someone that she's SLOW. she's slow really. and stubborn. stubbornly clinging on to her slow ways. i mean, u know i'm not exactly the most patient person ar'd. BUT she's simply adorable. long and lithe. chio and erm, more chio. convent girls. argh. she's 10. another few yrs and she's a definite heartbreaker. and we realised that we've common interests in pop-up stickers and swimming and competitions too.

"teacher teacher.. do u know that i get very sad when i go for competitions.. and my parents aren't there?"

damn. she is making me wanting to swim again. resist zhuangz resist!

there was this time i went and her sister (she's 4) rushed out of the kitchen "teacher is here!" and gave me a hug... awww... they're the sweetest family i've ever met man. i can see why she thinks teacher teacher MUST have kids in future.

slow. stubborn. stickers. swimming. a lot like me actually. only things are that i'm neither sweet nor skinny. ha ha ha

but kids can be mean too. she always laugh at her brother (he's 9) for being too fat. (he's just a LITTLE BIT plump. the two sisters are too skinny anyways. relativity. just like how my sisters are skinny. so i'm the fat one!) there was once he had this big black eye and u noe y? coz she kicked him underwater. and the black eye became so ugly we thot it's gonna dry up and pop out.

but u can tell that, despite the embarrassing childhood in the hands of his chio-but-sometimes-mean sister, in a few more yrs time, he's gonna grow up, hopefully lose all his baby fats, and become another major heartbreaker.

but teacher teacher thinks we shud still think abt the alternative possibilities.

anyways. i dunno y i digged that example out. becoz the real moral of the story is not abt that. it's more abt how i really dint wanna accept this tuition job at first coz she's my mom's fren's kid and u noe u cant charge much for ur mom's frens' kids. and she did warn me that the girl's SLOW. and STUBBORN. too much like me. but i'm liking this more n more. a gradual one. and i learn a lot from this "job" too. the reward's in something else. not the monetary kind.

so i think that someone is trying to teach me s'thing. maybe, just maybe.

2006-01-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

i kinda started 2006 off on the wrong foot in too many ways...

kenn says, "hahaha wah lau u realli a glutton no wonder god wanna teach u a lesson. hAhAHAHAHAhaha"

on days like this, i feel blessed to know what wonderful friends i have... (it's no joke ok! only such wonderful frens can so blatently tell u - u are a a glutton!)

ok add one more resolution to the list:

we resolve not to be such BIG gluttons. at least not for 2006. hmmp.

but we can still be small gluttons. hiakhiak.

2005-12-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

ho ho ho merry x'mas!

and it's the time of the yr to do a major stock-taking (no no i'm not talking abt the presents).. but to reflect and laugh at how u foolishly spent a yr thus far..

for me, some things are definitely looking better. from last yr, from half a yr ago. i feel happier doing the things i do, learning to say 'no', learning to love myself more (no no NOT from an egoist pt pf view), the making of certain choices which might've seem a puzzlement to other people at first do turn out to be right after all. well, at least i think they're right. i hope. *beams*

some things are still not moving in the direction that i want them too. but "be thankful for small mercies", i will continue to learn to accept certain truths and not-so-natural occurences. and pray for more patience from myself.

so yes, i seldom.. actually no. i nv did this b4. new yr resolutions. new yr new hope. hopefully things will only get better for me and you and everyone else!

i'll love myself even more. becoz no one will love me as well as i do.
i'll be motivated.
i'll stop building perfect illusions of other people.
i'll start saving.
i'll be responsible for myself. and stop trying to be responsible for other people.

wells. that shud be enough to work on alr'd right? 1 yr is really too short a time and each yr seems to be getting shorter and shorter. so may we not foolishly spend 2006 away. time supersonics u know? in fact, i think the quote of the year must be this...

"in 10yrs time, i'll become 31, still single, and still living in my parents' hse... !!!"

let's hope the last part wun come true. *shudders* i dun wanna walk down that same stretch of road in 10 yrs time, taking my 55 and u taking ur 53 and predicting wat we'll be in another 10 yrs. no matter wat, we'll get our own happening swinging singles pad. married/ attaches need not apply.

and just b4 i go away for the new yr season.. here's wishing everyone too a very happy new yr!

dun forget to pull ur ear ~

2005-12-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

i never really concluded that trend of thought, did i?

truth be told, the vague speck in the distance disturbs me more than a blank, open face in the crowd. u can still see her details, run a stereotype, even if u dun really know wat's going on in her head. and she's always there, looming large as life.

but the speck in the distance, once u discover it, is the dirt, the irritating fly which never goes away. and disturbs u to a magnitude u nv realised urself.

becoz admit it, the things that haunt u the most are really the small, not-so-significant incidences which is each, only a slight blip in this long journey of ur life. it keeps bugging u. it'll nv be solved. all the could it bes. what ifs. what if i'd put in more effort. what if i said otherwise. what if it wasn't me. what if we meet again. could it be this. could it be that.

2005-12-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

i was a big loser at the tender age of three. or was it two? a fat and furry carebear came to shake hands with me. it wanted to hug me even. (oh the blasphemy!) but i cried and screamed and kicked it away.

and that was my traumatic childhood. 2 days ago, i chanced upon this (with carine, sue and hui'en of coz! *beams*) and recalled my traumatic past.

wat're u thinking of now?

i'm thinking of the poor part-timer teenager in that stupid stuffy carebear suit 18 yrs ago. he must've grown much older, gotten married, have some kids of his own. and maybe even brought them to the crowd that day. maybe we'd even rubbed shoulders with one another. and he'll never realise the impact he had on my childhood formation.

or maybe he did, and secretly laughed at the poor kid in the stupid stuffy suit now. who knows, who knows.

2005-12-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

he has yet stepped out/ for a hundred days and a hundred nights

he hides behind the door, unnoticed
for a hundred days and a hundred nights
waiting hithero, for the girl to take him out

he dreams of days, long gone
when he could get dirty, making mad mad love
to the green green grass
and they'ld bask in the warm glow, of the settling sun

he is consumed by such desires, tho'
knowing full well that under the first veil of darkness
the crazy and the beautiful will dance
and trample, upon his very heart and soul

the strawberries and champagne, his delusions
the fat chicken legs, his hallucinations
the ravishing, the game
the coterie girls, his cross to bear

so girls, what says thou?

2005-12-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

u see the two girls in front?

u see the green top at the back?
it's one of my favouritest.

one of them (i dunno which one. but suckers always cover up for each other) has lost it.

so the next time u see any of the faces, do me a favour. punch it.

2005-12-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

holiday reads 101

am i disturbed? insightful? or just plain weird?

i may be a li'l out of touch too, but jeff noon is my newest favouritest author! pixel juice is pure delight. urban fairytales. told in the most magical possibilities of language. i highly recommend this to anyone who's any of the combination of disturbed, insightful and weird. i'm gonna hunt for his other books too.

alright... and maybe it's FINALLY time to get started on the tech workshop thing. danette's the greatest procrastinator if there ever is an guiness entry for one.

but wait! it's time for lunch and someone's cooking a fabulous spread! i must go and show some moral support... haha

procrastinate
Etymology: Latin procrastinatus, past participle of procrastinare, from pro- [forward] + crastinus- [of tomorrow], from cras- [tomorrow]
transitive senses : to put off intentionally and habitually
intransitive senses : to put off intentionally the doing of something that should be done

2005-12-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

sad but true - nobody knows anybody.

2005-11-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

i'm back!

becoz i need someone/something to whine to at this hr. and the only reason i need to whine is becoz i am genuinely sick of the endless christmas carols and horrendous christmas lightings and it is freaking.not.even.december.yet.

2005-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

3 words - lack of inspiration

and if u haven't guessed it by now, i dun even like the way i was beginning to write. mindless words churned in quantity fated to be forgotten and rot like all those yellow smelly books in the lib. who reads them?

so i guess it's a hiatus for me in the virtual world until i can think of what i want to do with this space.

2005-10-30T08:55:00.000+08:00

TRAVEL HOROSKOP
Result: are motto: if already vacation, then also correctly! The lion is always there where just the bear tap-dances. If you want to see the lion happily and satisfied, you watch that it stands in the limelight.

WOCHENHOROSKOP 24. -30.10.05
LUST UND LIEBE
equal how charming you look, now you encounter only ignorant types that have apparently all no taste. Your constellations are already unfortunate. There no golden dress and also no whale loin hair, the men helps are now simply beside it. You take simply entirely let it there.

!!!!!! ok! watever that means. hahaha. i'm just glad i'm not the worst when it comes to languages. hahaha

2005-10-28T08:15:00.000+08:00

of coz time is a commodity. like oil. u must have heard of, "buying time". i wonder, since i've bought so much of it, who's selling? i would like to buy more of it.

weird... the more i looked at what i've typed the more "buy" looks very wrong to me. like a non-word. plz tell me that i haven't spelt it wrongly.

otherwise, sarah! if u are still reading this... i erm, really cant wait to start mugging for the german end-of-sem and the vokalbeln tests! even tho' i know it'll drive me nuts this time round. and yes i'm crazy i know that too.

2005-10-20T02:38:00.000+08:00

the swedish lawyer is a cocky ass lah! "american accent" my ass. says:
awww...
the swedish lawyer is a cocky ass lah! "american accent" my ass. says:
nvm. u have a forever-fling in me
the swedish lawyer is a cocky ass lah! "american accent" my ass. says:
haha
oysterboy: oh grant me motivation! says:
no no
oysterboy: oh grant me motivation! says:
we're not just a fling
oysterboy: oh grant me motivation! says:
it's a forever committed relationship with real emotions!
the swedish lawyer is a cocky ass lah! "american accent" my ass. says:
wahhhhh!
the swedish lawyer is a cocky ass lah! "american accent" my ass. says:

*muackzmuackzflower*

girl friends are still the best.

2005-10-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

but far out was how he saw himself. he once said that you can imagine a painting, perhaps by Brueghel the Elder, the people and the action were in the foreground, full of colour, eating, stealing, copulating, laughing, courting each other, excreting, stabbing each other, selling things, climbing trees. then in the distance, at the far end of a vast plain, there he would be, a speck on the horizon, always receding and always there, and always a necessary and mysterious component of the picture, always there and never to be taken away, essential to the picture - a speck in the distance, which if you were to blow up the detail would simply be a vague figure, plodding on the other way.

but that's not the main point, i said. remember amelie? the crippled old man? the girl in the painting? surrounded by too many people. too many colours. too many actions. so what he said is not true. the fore/middle ground is not always full of action. our minds compress an overdose of details into vagueness.

emptiness persist. so where was she looking? who was she looking at?

2005-10-09T08:53:00.000+08:00

last night, i went for the german day+shopping+dinner with serene, our dear junior.

as some of you may know it by alr'd, she is now my bestest best fren in the lecture grp. we talked prob not more than 5 sentences in that one yr and now we seem to be making up for lost time. in fact, next fri we're most likely gonna a date again to watch some german movie. (which means i must cancel my movie date with simon on that day! *sobs* ok. even tho' the supposed date with him is with 99 other pple in a freezing LT watching some old samurai movie. STILL!!! it's a movie!!! *cries*)

funny i think. how life always but turns out to be this way.

2005-10-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

simon's room is really neat, and i like neat people! at least there's like, a natural affinity with them. they'll understand why my room is so orderly. unlike that crazy woman who slammed her door coz i threw her notes which were everywhere out of my room.

2005-10-02T04:59:00.000+08:00

thought-provoking msn-chats with yingying and juliana seperately. who wud have imagined, those few innocent questions can lead us to think about our suppressed-selves (or at least, that's what i think is in the three of us) so much deeper. and i got to know each of them better as an individual. as a friend.

msn is so powerful. i shall always remember what was discussed tonight.

so remember, your club "president" (which is me. haha) is all-knowing. hahaha

2005-09-23T03:02:00.000+08:00

i read this from my sis's fren's blog.

"chatted with my bro yesterday and topic of conversation invariably shifted to jc life so was just listening to him recount a little bit and i guess it really made me kinda envious of his jc life. not that mine isnt any good, but theres just sth diff about hwachong i guess. and i think my brother is a blockhead he took 7 years to figure out whether someone was interested in him. 7 years."

suddenly i dun feel like too much of a blockhead after all.

2005-09-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

oh dear me what've i done, with all that fascination with samurais, knights, generals and now, gurkhas*.

and candice is such a bad influence. my stalkerish instincts are on the rise (ok, at least to me). i just googled "oliver rutz +uni heidelberg +inter-varsity debate". all for the purpose of showing u what i meant by da jiang zhi feng mah! unfortunately... no results!!! sigh.

2005-09-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

disgusting but true, i woke up screaming today becoz i overslept too much.

i am spending too much time online. for that, i blame the nobody-told-me-cannot-access-from-home JSTOR* for making me come online in the first place.

anyhow, i am hooked on the inter-varsity debate (in chinese), especially the Group B contest (for non-native speakers), and especially the particular one in which beijing communication uni vs. uni of heidelberg. and i relish, for the lack of a better word - especially, how the germans trip over chinese words. well actually, it's only the girls. the two guys were good. the fourth (and concluding) speaker in particular. he just have this air/charisma when he speaks, i love that air, and the judges likened him to "a general" (da4 jiang4 zhi1 feng1). becoz how can someone, anyone, think of this in conclusion,

"i'm sorry if we made any of you laugh. becoz today's topic is a deeply serious one".

no surprise there that he won the best speaker.

but both teams were very, very good. the ideas were very in-depth. a pity there that someone has to lose in a debate. (the beijing one won. but to dispell notions, they consists of 2 koreans, a jap, and a black from-i-dunno-where, whom the judges find very handsome and charming and... generous?) for that one hr, they made me waiver on what i thought i have a strong stand on - if euthanasia shud be decided by an individual. (or simply put, does anyone have a right to die)

they make me feel.. small. that i really am not a uni student. that i've been a fake all the while. and nostalgia for the good ol' jc/ sec sch (esp!) days, where debate was the hot thing. nowadays everyone (including me) talks too much gibberish.

ok. and i'm gonna brush up my chinese after this too.

2005-09-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

as simon said, "have fun during the break... doing ur projects. hahaha"

he is such a dear. BAH!

well, i think it's time to take a real break again.

2005-09-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

haven't you noticed, that funny shows are funny only when u watch with other people? watching funny shows by urself is sad. like some outcasted loner nobody wanna have fun with.

mavisteo absolutely cannot remember that we did "a sound of thunder" for sec 1 lit. and we had the same tcher somemore!!! (sandy leow) so can someone plz support my stand and prove to her, we really did?

i wanna watch "a sound of thunder" too.

oh and to celebrate penguin's 70 yrs of publishing, it has released 70 short stories written by 70 different types. from experts like vladimir nabakov and sigmund freud, to writers like h.g. wells, jonathan coe, to zadie smith and ali g and jamie oliver and other too-happening for me writers that i dunno of. there's even homer! (as in, iliad homer. not simpson homer) and i l0ve the books! (well, but i love books)

and i am someone who judge a book by its cover. haha

i bought 4 from the co-op the other day. and then induced mavis to buy another 4 at borders y'day. we want to collect the entire collection.

so, plz help to contribute to our "penguin" funds.

2005-09-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

kenn "she suggested; she hoped; she demanded.." says:
haha
[zhuangz] simon replied! simon replied!! simon replied!!! my 8days horoscope is coming true!!!! says:
classic communication breakdown
kenn says:
he mus be thinking u r such a geek
kenn says:
go LIBRARY
kenn says:
for dinner

[zhuangz] says:

ahahhahahaha
[zhuangz] says:
do i look like somone who goes to the lib for dinner?!?
[zhuangz] says:
hahahahah
kenn says:
wells u can nv judge a book by its cover
kenn says:
preciseli u dun look like one
kenn says:
den he asked u
[zhuangz] says:
haha u shud have seen the last part the awkward silence
kenn says:
n so disppointed tat u r a closet geek
[zhuangz] says:
the i dun understand him he doesn't understand me
[zhuangz] says:
then u noe the classic when pple dun understand each other

they just smile n smile n smile
kenn says:
hahaha
kenn says:
yar yar i KNOWWWW
kenn says:
my classic face
kenn says:
smile for the sake of smiling
kenn says:
luff for the sake of luffing

2005-09-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

if only nus has some module where i can pursue one of the most profound questions that we need to know.

and don't underestimate me man! i do think a lot about such questions!

like, for example, the reasons why love makes you slim.

love is a heart-throbbing affair. ur heartbeat increases (electrical energy), blood flows faster (kinetic energy), one blushes too much coz the capillaries dilate too easily (heat energy dissipated), one thinks too much (potential energy), sparks and chemistry (exothermic reaction. and light and sound energies given out too probably). Thus, overall, ur basal metabolic rate increases fiftyfold.

so, if in the near-and-not-so-near future some article from the scientific community appears... remember, danette have published her report FIRST. here.

2005-09-03T03:17:00.000+08:00

i love Minamoto no Yoshitsune!!!

i love him so much that... look at the time now. i stayed up till now to do my readings about him! on a friday night!!! simon wud be so proud of me. well, but i love simon too! even tho' he is so boring this sem. and even tho' he'd cheated my feelings by discontinuing the geisha component of the course.

i think that... yoshitsune must'd been very handsome last time... a very handsome and big and tall and strong and mature and charismatic samurai. like the long ze xiu ming in the NHK drama which simon showed us...

i swear the whole lecture group swooned.

and oh yes! speaking of handsome jap guys... takuya kimura is coming back to channel u! it's some ice-hockey show (opps i forgot the title)! hooray!

and a not-so-wonderful news. i've unknowingly secured a date with herr AH-lex. well it's free tuition but... ... oh dear!!!

2005-08-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

pardon the MIA-ness.

i had my first gem (the geisha module. i dropped econs.) today. we have a tutor who is really a phD student. he is from germany and he can't speak english very well. in fact, he sounds too halting and harsh and terribly nervous and blushes profusely when he is in front of the class.

now if u are one of his students - of coz u'll automatically think, "wahlau! lauzee tutor!". or at least, this is what i gathered from the majority population's reaction to a "foreign" tutor who can't speak their language. we feel that we can't communicate our ideas to them very well, and thus will be penalised for that.

as we were the last grp to present our proposal to him, he was obviously drained from listening to other grps and couldn't process what we said very fast. (trust me, listening to a language u aren't familiar with is hard work) when we concluded, i thanked him in german and immediately, he excitedly launched into "Sprichst du Deutsch?!?!?!" and a whole torrent of conversation that followed. and it seemed that once it started it nv stopped.

my other grp member was very amused we kept at it for so long and she thought i was very pro. but what she didn't realie was that, actually i could only understand maybe abt 50% of what he said in his muttersprache, the rest is guesswork and fill-in-the-blanks. while he took twice as long as a normal person wud to process my english sentences.

having a series of funny communication breakdowns and being dummmified in meine Deutsch Unterricht this sem, i can totally understand how he must have felt. it's a, "finally! someone can speak my language/ can understand me!!!" and u must binge-talk to make up for the shortfalls.

the tutor/me definitely appeared to have a different personality when he/i can use his/my muttersprache. very bubbly and spontaneous. while the other is very slow and cautious, and very worried about commiting grammatic or vocab mistakes. and it shows.

ok. actually i forgot what was the moral that i'd wanted to impart. something abt not getting too worried when u get a foreigner tutor. (i know many who do.) i am very tired. but u guys/ girls are very smart pple so u can figure out what i mean.

2005-08-21T03:37:00.000+08:00

quote we're always so good with pretending unquote

now that was taken in a very funny context. but if we think abt it, it's kinda a sad truth. the two most happening ones have become the two most unhappening ones.

ever since the advent of cheap student priced sushi buffets, i'd hardly gone for a good sushi meal. only the cheap and stuffed ones. that's just so us. quantity over quality.

thankfully, that phase of life is over. maybe i'm "lost" in the "middle" of the forest. and just to let u all know, yes u may view me as a fish.. but i am really a BEAR. hahahahaha. at least i'm not a, gorilla!

good quality food and good company a happy person maketh.

and all the talk is making me thirsty for a drink. a Black Cherry and Rose Bellini specifically. (which is not the one in the pic. that was a classic mr. smith dry martini drink. and that was two wks ago. i'm a real dinosaur at photo uploads.)

2005-08-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

now i don't want anyone to get worried or what not. but i just need to rant.

i don't know if it is intentional or not. it does feel that way. she hurts me. a lot.

and when that happens, i get negative too. but i tell myself i'm in club21 now so i shud just shut the fuck up and continue to act mean and happy with myself.

2005-08-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

highlights of the wk include eating instant noodle es the korean army way, laughing at how the exchange students reactions to durians, visiting the very nice and friendly lynn with her very nice and comfy bed, eating cheap 1.50 meals, making model, funny communication breakdowns..

lowlights include not being able to meet joanne and of-all-nerves forgetting to call b4 time! falling down in front of 50 pple, attending the wrong lecture in a sleep-deprived stupor, missing the lecture by my favouritest handsomestest lecturer in the whole nus..

2005-08-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

have u ever noticed how, we tend to get increasingly louder and agitated when the person doesn't understand you?

for example,
"ok.. you walk straight to the letterbox, and turn left"
"???"
"walk straight, to the letterbox, turn left!"
"???"
"walk Straight, see Letterbox, turn Left."
"???"
"STRAIGHT, LETTERBOX, LEFT. left. lefT. LEFT! LLLEFT!!!"

as if volume can compensate and the person will understand you when you jumping about like a mad monkey.

2005-08-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

i hate irresponsible pple!

of coz. i am not the best example when it comes to being responsible, but at least i try my best not to cause people trouble. i always ask when i borrow things, i return things by the deadline, i try not to be late

(but of coz this is very much dependent on who i am going out with. there are pple who are always punctual so i am never late with them. and then there're frens like me who are always late so we understand each other's rhythm and synchronize with that. thank goodness they form 95% of my friends.)

no matter how big a bastard one is, i think there are three basic rules to live by:

1. when u are late, u are just wasting everybody's time.

e.g. even gangsters are never late for negotiations.

2. if u did not ask for permission when u borrow things, u will cause other pple to jump ar'd when they can't find their things.

e.g. see how gang fights always occur due to misunderstandings or miscommunications?

3. if u do not return the things u borrowed on time, u are gonna cause big trouble for the person.

e.g. because u nv return money to that starving man, he cannot pay his loans on time so the loan sharks come n beat him up.

ta ma de! *ROARS*

talking abt being late and wasting other people's time.. a fren complained so much he drove me to nuts abt how his fren is always late for their meetings. for the past 10 yrs.

now, of coz the person who is late is at fault. but i think, 10 yrs is a really long time u noe. u shud have known the other person inside out alr'd so what kind of fren are u to get angry and complain abt ur fren being late and u are always so punctual? it's just ur own fault for not including "buffer time" for urself! stupid!

2005-08-07T02:06:00.000+08:00

oh craps. i think... i lost my identity card.

2005-08-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

oh! i must mention! according to my dunno-whether-reliable-or-not sister, there's this jap family living at the same level as us and the teenager jap guy is really really really cute! i wanna see! mi tai! tanoshimi! hontou ni!

ok. off to shower n the class gathering. *crosses fingers*

2005-08-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

i was rummaging thru' the stuff i bought yesterday for the washbin when i realised that two of the pcs can add up to this.

chey, u said. of coz they aren't special at all by themselves.

unknowingly, unwittingly, unforeseenably. the power of the subconscious.

2005-08-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

yay amazingly i've got all my elective modules!

-----Allocated Modules-----

Module Code : GEK2022
Module Title: GEISHA, SAMURAI AND YAKUZA AS SELF/OTHER

Module Code : LAG3201
Module Title: GERMAN 3

Module Code : EC1301
Module Title: PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS

of coz i'm not that crazy to take so many electives. i'm definitely dropping one of them. just a matter of which one.

anyways i had a totally new experience today. HP and sha will know what i'm talking abt. i think women are funny. pay money to get ourselves tortured. haha.

otherwise, charlie and the chocolate factory shud really be called "oompa loompa and the chocolate factory". HP agreed too that the little oompas are the real male lead actor(s). i just love all those little copies! (esp the shrink.. hahaha). but but i must also tell mr. johnny depp that, even tho' he's really not the male lead, and no matter how freaky he becomes i still love him the most!

the silly willy wonka song is stuck in my head! (yes i kept singing it in the lift just now.. i think i scared a few pple... haha)

willy wonka! willy wonka! the amazing chocolateer!
willy wonka! willy wonka! everybody give a cheer!

let's boogie!

2005-07-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

i've added huiping, yuxun, kenrus and kenn to the links (below). welcome to the happening crowd! haha. actually i'd wanted to add minghui and the alsace-lorraine girl some time back too, but my main comp crashed and i lost all my links.

but what i really wanna say was - just when i am disillusioned and sworn to lay off gathering gatherings, my dear darling who is leaving too soon and has too little time for everybody made me believe in the goodness of humankind again! happy!

z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
cannot lah
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
i noe u must meet [him]
ladeedah says:
no lar/...
ladeedah says:
hahahah
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
*wink wink nudge nudge*
ladeedah says:
i can always meet him another time
ladeedah says:
u more impt leh
ladeedah says:

=)
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
WAH!!!!
ladeedah says:
hahhaha of course
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
i am so touched!
ladeedah says:
u touched a not
ladeedah says:
heehee
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
*sniffss* ... u are one of the first pple to say that!
ladeedah says:
of course... u my darling what
ladeedah says:
heehee
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
everybody always go n meet bfs and ignore me. *sniffs*
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
oh yes my dear
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
haha
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
*MUACKZ*
ladeedah says:
hahah ok so i see u on sat
ladeedah says:
see ya babe!
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
okok now i'm motivated to organise and get the other two too!
z is for zegna. z is for zenith. z is for zara. z is for zhuang. of coz z is cool. says:
yupz CYA!

2005-07-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

dancing where the stars go blue

dancing where the evening fell

dancing in my wooden shoes

in a wedding gown

dancing on seventh street

dancing through the underground

dancing little marienet

are you happy now?

where do you go when you're lonely?

where do you go when you're blue?

where do you go when you're lonely?

i follow you when the stars go blue

2005-07-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

today is the kind of day that, u screw up for ur first meeting/appointment, and u become late for everything else during the day.

or else everything else screws up. like amusing a bunch of impt looking businessmen at the airport, in the wrong way. forgetting to bring the most important thing. getting an old chee ko pek angmoh doctor when u cant reach ur regular doctor at the hospital. not being able to find a single pretty bra in a brashop stacked to the ceilings with bras. not being able to be more decisive in certain, erm, decisions. not being able to get a decent crop top for the night when crop tops are THE RAGE now. losing money. making a booboo during ultra nice glam maybe-will-nv-happen-again-in-the-next-50-yrs dinner. and so happily wiping the camera out to take photo with my big, red, loopsided childhood fan (haha pun!) to find it is so low batt it cannot even be turned on.

it's TIME to be more responsible with TIME. crap. total up the amt i spend on cabs for the last wk i can happily get my precious TIME.

hey i did wake up at 5.30am ok. just that it has been millions of yrs since i last woke up at that time so i told myself.. ok 5 more mins. and the next time i saw the alarm it was 6.30...

otherwise. everybody always has impressive but not impressive enough for me excuses. what a rotten place.

2005-07-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

i'm in my ribbons craze now!

it all started with a short piece of leftover ugly use-for-colouring-monsters green ribbon. i tied it to my hair. i liked the way it looked. the next thing i knew, my feet went on auto-pilot to spotlight while i was in town to return some books (and i was supposed to be on a rush to somewhere else!) so i have 4 more long ribbons to go crazy now! and u bet i'm gonna get more *beams* mint, lemon yellow, peach jump, and a fairy pink piece...

i always thot what a wonderful job those people who invent names for colours have. paint tubes, lipsticks, blahblah and now even ribbons. i want that job.

well, and the mint ribbon i used immediately helped me at the mahjung table later me thinks. me din't lose as much as the last time we played at kenn's hse. (kelvin refused to pay if nv play money so me the only non gambler ended up being the biggest loser. xyz.)

and while i love too much and nv resist any sinful oily food... last night's hawker thoroughfare was a li'l, erm.. too thorough. even for me. felt like an oil well abt to sprout anytime while the cab bumped its way home.

and they're leaving too soon. without me. sigh.

2005-07-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

everything will be alrite cos God is in control and i have u to whine to.. says:
kelly on the phone la
everything will be alrite cos God is in control and i have u to whine to.. says:
not huanjie
everything will be alrite cos God is in control and i have u to whine to.. says:
they jus came back fr hk!!!
candice says:
shopping and eating!
Lynnkoh says:
oh i see...
Lynnkoh says:
hehe
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
hey candice..yahman.. we were at huanjie's workplace y'day too!
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
we need to hang out lydat that more
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
u noe wat i realised?
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
even tho' wenshan has been so secretive and all that last time
everything will be alrite cos God is in control and i have u to whine to.. says:
ya!?!?!??!
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
...
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
haha
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
wat
[zhuangz] chocolate milk and assam fishhead dun mix says:
no lah. but it's the first time we hang out with a teammate-in-law!
Lynnkoh says:
oh yes it is!!!!
Lynnkoh says:
heheh
everything will be alrite cos God is in control and i have u to whine to.. says:
hahahahaha

2005-07-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

one of the lovely things there that made me secretly smile a li'l.

i think the people there are really nice. unlike some people here.

anyways, the dim sum buffet restuarant captain can recognise me now. so can the auntie dishing out the longs.

otherwise, i've stumbled upon a new and nicer way to upload photos on blogger. no more irritating-have-open-another-program hello! plus the words can go around the pic nicely!

and erm, ulu me has discovered that the msn wallapaper can be changed. (yes that is very very ulu and stupid of a msn-pioneer i know). but i'm having fun with all the shawn yue photos i've stashed last wk. hahaha

2005-07-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

after having my head in the clouds for the past few days, i've finally came crashing down back on the earth. and man is it hot here or what!

2005-07-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

now, this is wat i call amusing.

who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
chey. why do u wanna take physics?
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
inspired by tan boon poh's talk y'day?
sylvia voz~ says:
cos its my lousy faculty requirement!
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
heheh
sylvia voz~ says:
whos tanboonpoh ah?
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
the canoeing tcher!
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
sitting next to u... ... ... ... ...
sylvia voz~ says:
ooh!!!!!!
sylvia voz~ says:
hahahah paiseh
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
aiyah anyways u wanna take a business mod tog?
sylvia voz~ says:
crap talked to him for hrs and i still didnt know who he is
who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs? says:
bahahahaahaha!
_____

cafe cartel has a puking effect on me. everytime when i eat there i wanna puke after that.

and mrs lee said i've become more feminine! (mr. lee's wife. wah she looks so elegant just standing there waiting for his car! oh yes we hitched a ride in his car.. coz we were super late in meeting bengz for dinner! 1 and 1/2 hrs to be exact.)

this was how it went:

mr. lee - ey zhuangz i think u got hope alr'd. my wife just said that u've become more feminine.
me - huh???
mrs. lee - last time ur hair was shorter right? now longer...
[yes, we were at their ROM, their wedding, their hse warming so she had plenty of chances to observe us.]
me - hur??? erm, maybe coz no money to cut hair...

2005-07-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

long day. extremely tired. to the bones.

a man sees the leg of a dead frog twitching when touched by a steel knife. and the next thing we know is that we have the first electric battery, the voltaic pile, leading in due course to electric trams, trains, union strikes and terrorist attacks.